Scripture:
Psalm 25:16-26:3 “Turn to me and have mercy on me, for I am alone and in deep distress. My problems go from bad to worse. Oh, save me from them all! Feel my pain and see my trouble. Forgive all my sins. See how many enemies I have, and how viciously they hate me! Protect me! Rescue my life from them! Do not let me be disgraced, for I trust in you. May integrity and honesty protect me, for I put my hope in you. Declare me innocent, O Lord, for I have acted with integrity; I have trusted in the Lord without wavering. Put me on trial, Lord, and cross-examine me. Test my motives and affections. For I am constantly aware of your unfailing love, and I have lived according to your truth.”
Observation:
Last week was a difficult week. Not last Wednesday, but the Wednesday before, we started our commitment to move Jenna out of our bed. It meant 1 to 2 hour long fights in the middle of the night and by the beginning of last week both Nicole and I were exhausted. Although my present pain is always more difficult than my past pain, last week felt more tiring than any time since Jenna was born.
This is my first journal entry since two Fridays ago – it feels good to be doing this again, and this passage is a good reminder of Scripture’s relevancy to my life. Toward the end of last week I had a conversation that, after thinking and praying, makes me identify with David’s prayer, though not with quite so much passion. I think I’d write something more like
Turn to me and have mercy, for I am alone and in distress. Oh, save me from them all! Forgive my sins. See the misplaced frustration of my friends. Protect me! Rescue my integrity from them. Do not let me be disgraced, for I trust in you. May integrity and honesty protect me, for I put my hope in you. Declare me innocent, O Lord, for I have acted with integrity. Put me on trial, Lord, and cross-examine me. Test my motives. I am constantly in need of your unfailing love, and I try to live according to your truth.
Initially I wasn’t going to include vs 26:3 – “I am constantly aware of your unfailing love,” but it’s good to remember and helps put things in perspective.
Application:
I think the best thing I can do right now is to hold on to trusting in God. I don’t know how things are going to play out, but I can rely on God’s unfailing love.
Prayer:
Lord, thank you for meeting with me. I missed this time last week. I pray the prayer above; declare me innocent, O Lord, for I have acted with integrity.
